PLEASE TAKE ME OUT, MOM

Dedicated to my mom

I’m longing for your face I could not seen for days
For your lap whose warmth
Icould not be filled with, MOM…

Ifeel like I’m at a loose end without you
Time is flying away through my palms
Like overflowing rivers
I cannot stop it MOM…

I see you in my dreams
Your hair is as white as a cloud,
Loves are as endless as the sky in your heart
Your eyes are looking compassionately as always
I’m a tiny baby in your hands, MOM…

What a warm lap is this!
Your never-ending love from your body
That has animated my body. With your patience with me
Your heartbeats are getting mixed with mine, MOM…

I’m away now…
Whats brings me to the foreign places…
Do not be silent! Please tell me, MOM…

While keeping safe from the light in the eyes
One of my halves has remained there,
And the other is here. When I’m close to you like a breath
Ihave not hugged and smelled you yet, MOM

Isbthat the rule of life?
We do not realize the value of someone unless we lose them.
Where is unconditional love… And attention?
I could not find someone to replace with you, MOM…

How many seasons have passed without you?
Unhappily… Your flowers are lacking
In the garden of your heart without me…
I know You are longing, too. You are longing me, MOM.

I didn’t know how time passed…
When I was near you
How I have longed for you…
How I have loved you but…
I could not say,
Icould not say, MOM…

Every day a shouting and screaming storm
Blows up in my heart
My songs are on the wings of birds.
Please listen to them… Listen, MOM…

Some days… you are a pain in my heart,
Some days… A ball of fire falling into me
I become a rain turning into a downpour
As if all the clouds of the sky are in my eyes, MOM…

When I think about my unlived days
I fell scared to be lonely…
As if death has held my skirt.
I wantto live… To live! MOM…
Do not withhold your love, and extend your beatiful hands.
One side of me is stil a child, understand me!
Before I get lost, please tak eme out
Of thje labyrinth of life! Take me out, MOM…

Leyla Işık Translated by Baki Yiğit